A lot of my motivation when starting this blog was to capture all of the fantastic and silly things my kids say. They crack me up every single day, but more than that, they say the sweetest and sometimes, most profound things.
Tonight was a great night. Usually, Tim works the closing shift and bedtime is for the kids and me. But tonight we were able to go about our routine with him by our side. Our nightly Goosebumps viewing dissolved into a tickle fight, which then dissolved into a mess of hyper pups, giggling kids, and the happiest parents all crammed onto our queen sized bed.
As we all stopped for a minute to catch our breath and calm the dogs down, Aria looked at us and said the best thing I’ve heard yet.
“We’re the laughing family! We’re always laughing and I love it!”
Noah excitedly agreed with his sister and my heart soared. We may not have it all together or be where we would like to be. In fact, we may even be in a seemingly unending season of trials and struggles but we still have it so, so good. We have been able to raise these two beautiful little human beings, who even in the midst of so much darkness shine light into our lives with their innate joy. And nights like tonight prove that, by the grace of God and God alone, we’re not totally screwing this gig up.
Mom-guilt gets the best of me all too often. I let my mind and insecurities run wild when our circumstances feel out of control. It kills me when I’m not able to buy the kids a new outfit for a special event or take them out for ice cream to celebrate special accomplishments. But Aria’s bold declaration about our family and who we are reminds me that these fears about perceived shortcomings are my own. I’m the one who ties my worth and success as a mother to the number on my paycheck, not my kids. They don’t care if their closet is 75% Goodwill finds, they just want that second and third story before bedtime. And they don’t care if we’re at a fancy ice cream shop or if we’re rocking our jammies in my bed while we watch Goosebumps.
Just as long as we keep laughing.